A word recipe for exploration:
Definition: traveling (or travelling—with two LL’s!) through an unfamiliar area in order to learn about it; a deep analysis of a theme or topic.
Origin: Middle French, from the 1540s, directly from the Latin word meaning “an examination,” to “investigate” or to “examine.”
Gather the parts of yourself that are uncomfortable
Like a cluttered house that needs a deep cleaning let them simply be
Their messiness, their futility create the pull toward a deep anxiety:
Be with it, don’t rush to clean it up, walk around it, say nice to meet you my
Name is x, and I don’t like you y, I’m not really sure but
I’d like to know what makes you tick, and sure I may be an old crock,
But that’s the unique thing about me, I’ll live,
And make peace with you as part of this exploration
To know the parts I hate, the ones I ignore, the places I agonize
Seed the fullness of my present joy.